The Watcher
Posted: Mon Jul 23, 2007 11:31 am
The youth knelt down and lit a candle in front of the elegant memorial. He sat for what seemed like hours, staring at one of the listed names but he shed no tears. Eventually he stood up and wandered into the gardens of the House, his white wolf running in and out of the shrubbery, stopping at a tree that seemed both out of place and at home. Unknown to him it was a native tree of the Plane of Growth. He suddenly looked around himself as though sensing someone or something watching him. Then he looked skywards, as though right at her and the Watcher longed to reach out and comfort him, to tell him it would all be alright…
The scene suddenly rippled in front of her and she realised she had reached out and touched the water. Sighing, she tore her eyes away from the normally still pool and sat up straight. She sat under a willow tree, its long tresses shading her from the sun that shone down in the clearing of the vast woods and the rolling plains beyond.
“Altáriël.”
The Watcher spun round at the sound of her given name, golden eyes meeting the emerald of Tunare’s. She smiled, though it was a little strained from the longing she felt. She would have known without looking who it was though, for only Tunare called her that. Any mortal that had ever known it had passed on before her. Tunare came to sit by her side, and The Watcher had long since given up being awed by the closeness of the Mother’s presence.
“Even after so many years you still watch them. Does it give you peace?”
The Watcher was still for a moment, then shook her head, her fiery hair shimmering with a touch of gold in the sunlight.
“I don’t know why I do it. It’s not like I can do anything to help them. It just frustrates me.”
They sat in silence for a while, Altáriël staring at her hands, holding them up. Slender but strong hands, pale with an oaken tint but no scales or coloured markings anymore. In this place she was as she had been born, Fier’Dal for the most part. She appeared youthful, like most elves did, but her gold eyes which had softened from the glittering orbs of the Dragon Touched to their natural liquid gold, showed the essence of a being much older than her youthful figure conveyed. Her long red hair fell way past her shoulders in a shimmering cascade of wildfire.
“Would you go back if you could?” asked Tunare after the long silence.
“Why want something that I know cannot be?” responded Altáriël.
“Why torture yourself watching that which you can never touch?”
Altáriël frowned. “Because I miss them.” She sighed. “And because I feel guilty that they are burdened with the task set for me.”
“You are The Watcher, your task was to learn the opposition, their weaknesses, their strengths. You even walked the Dark path yourself to do so. The task they pursue is what they set themselves, though perhaps the younger ones do so inspired by your memory.”
“But I did nothing worthy of their admiration! I met none of them til three hundred years after I last did anything significant. They do not know who I was, the power I wielded. All they saw and knew was a woman scorched by Dragons blood with the memories of an illustrious past! Did they really know me?” Her voice softened. “Do I know me?”
Tunare pulled the troubled woman closer to Her, embracing her in a motherly way and stroking her fiery hair. “Those are answers only you can find. The lesson would not be learned if I tell you. But you will likely never learn it while you are not whole…”
Altáriël pulled back from the embrace and stared at the Mother with wide eyes as the Goddess continued. “Part of you is still anchored in Norrath, imbued in the Dragonscale pendant you wore. It’s current wearer dreams of your past, slowly but surely infiltrating her thoughts.”
“Kalsari.” Whispered Altáriël, thinking of the Tier’Dal rogue she had watched sometimes, shadowing Tajer’s every move until more recent years when she had begun to explore her own path more. She still thought it odd that Tajer had given the barely adolescent girl she had found on the streets, the very same name she herself had used in exile. Obviously Tajer had researched deeper into her grandmothers past to find the name, but Altáriël had no doubt that Tajer had named the girl such for a reason known only to her.
Tunare nodded. “The one of your bloodline changed her.” Altáriël did not need to ask what she meant by ‘changed’. After another period of silence the Mother of All continued. “You will never truly be happy here with me while you long so much for your son and your friends. Your spirit split between the realms does not help either. When you return you must unite your spirit once more.”
It took The Watcher a few minutes before she realised what Tunare was saying. “Return? But I am dead, I have been for thirteen years, how can I go back?”
The Goddess chuckled. “Am I not the Giver of Life?” She swept an arm across the forest and planes before them. “You may go back if you wish, you need only ask. Just know that they may not recognise you, or simply refuse to. Some do not believe in miracles Altáriël.”
With those words, Tunare left The Watcher to think on it. The pool was still again and Altáriël gazed again upon its glassy surface. The flamed haired young man had left, but the candle he had lit still burned brightly beside the stone Memorial. One name caught her eye, the same name he had stared at, the name she had not heard nor spoken in thirteen years but was as familiar as grass beneath her feet. Jetamio.
The scene suddenly rippled in front of her and she realised she had reached out and touched the water. Sighing, she tore her eyes away from the normally still pool and sat up straight. She sat under a willow tree, its long tresses shading her from the sun that shone down in the clearing of the vast woods and the rolling plains beyond.
“Altáriël.”
The Watcher spun round at the sound of her given name, golden eyes meeting the emerald of Tunare’s. She smiled, though it was a little strained from the longing she felt. She would have known without looking who it was though, for only Tunare called her that. Any mortal that had ever known it had passed on before her. Tunare came to sit by her side, and The Watcher had long since given up being awed by the closeness of the Mother’s presence.
“Even after so many years you still watch them. Does it give you peace?”
The Watcher was still for a moment, then shook her head, her fiery hair shimmering with a touch of gold in the sunlight.
“I don’t know why I do it. It’s not like I can do anything to help them. It just frustrates me.”
They sat in silence for a while, Altáriël staring at her hands, holding them up. Slender but strong hands, pale with an oaken tint but no scales or coloured markings anymore. In this place she was as she had been born, Fier’Dal for the most part. She appeared youthful, like most elves did, but her gold eyes which had softened from the glittering orbs of the Dragon Touched to their natural liquid gold, showed the essence of a being much older than her youthful figure conveyed. Her long red hair fell way past her shoulders in a shimmering cascade of wildfire.
“Would you go back if you could?” asked Tunare after the long silence.
“Why want something that I know cannot be?” responded Altáriël.
“Why torture yourself watching that which you can never touch?”
Altáriël frowned. “Because I miss them.” She sighed. “And because I feel guilty that they are burdened with the task set for me.”
“You are The Watcher, your task was to learn the opposition, their weaknesses, their strengths. You even walked the Dark path yourself to do so. The task they pursue is what they set themselves, though perhaps the younger ones do so inspired by your memory.”
“But I did nothing worthy of their admiration! I met none of them til three hundred years after I last did anything significant. They do not know who I was, the power I wielded. All they saw and knew was a woman scorched by Dragons blood with the memories of an illustrious past! Did they really know me?” Her voice softened. “Do I know me?”
Tunare pulled the troubled woman closer to Her, embracing her in a motherly way and stroking her fiery hair. “Those are answers only you can find. The lesson would not be learned if I tell you. But you will likely never learn it while you are not whole…”
Altáriël pulled back from the embrace and stared at the Mother with wide eyes as the Goddess continued. “Part of you is still anchored in Norrath, imbued in the Dragonscale pendant you wore. It’s current wearer dreams of your past, slowly but surely infiltrating her thoughts.”
“Kalsari.” Whispered Altáriël, thinking of the Tier’Dal rogue she had watched sometimes, shadowing Tajer’s every move until more recent years when she had begun to explore her own path more. She still thought it odd that Tajer had given the barely adolescent girl she had found on the streets, the very same name she herself had used in exile. Obviously Tajer had researched deeper into her grandmothers past to find the name, but Altáriël had no doubt that Tajer had named the girl such for a reason known only to her.
Tunare nodded. “The one of your bloodline changed her.” Altáriël did not need to ask what she meant by ‘changed’. After another period of silence the Mother of All continued. “You will never truly be happy here with me while you long so much for your son and your friends. Your spirit split between the realms does not help either. When you return you must unite your spirit once more.”
It took The Watcher a few minutes before she realised what Tunare was saying. “Return? But I am dead, I have been for thirteen years, how can I go back?”
The Goddess chuckled. “Am I not the Giver of Life?” She swept an arm across the forest and planes before them. “You may go back if you wish, you need only ask. Just know that they may not recognise you, or simply refuse to. Some do not believe in miracles Altáriël.”
With those words, Tunare left The Watcher to think on it. The pool was still again and Altáriël gazed again upon its glassy surface. The flamed haired young man had left, but the candle he had lit still burned brightly beside the stone Memorial. One name caught her eye, the same name he had stared at, the name she had not heard nor spoken in thirteen years but was as familiar as grass beneath her feet. Jetamio.